I don’t really know how to say this, but I guess I’ll be leaving Paint for a while. I’ve been struggling with what to write because it’s not easy to explain, but I need some time away to figure things out. Lately, I’ve been dealing with a lot of emotional distress, including self-harm, depression, and this overwhelming anger that I can’t seem to control or understand. I realize this may have affected some of you, and for that, I want to say I’m truly sorry.

There are some people here who I may have hurt, either through my actions or words. I never meant to cause pain, but I know I’ve made mistakes. To those I’ve hurt, I’m really sorry:
@isaiahxdd, @isaiahxd, @noobishpro, @benten, @amjam, @kashbanooka, @tiaiscool, @jax_xds, @dcthegamr, @theallyway, @rosebloodstone, @cakegaming.

While I’m gone, I’ll be trying to focus on getting better. I’m planning to reach out for help, maybe talk to a therapist or someone who can guide me through this. I also need to put more focus on school and try to get my life back in order. I honestly don’t know how long I’ll be away—it could be a few days, maybe even weeks—but I hope you understand that I need this time to heal.

I hate that I’ve caused any inconvenience or hurt to anyone on Paint, and I sincerely apologize for that. Please know that I appreciate all of you, even if I haven’t always shown it in the best way. I will be back, though—hopefully. (If I don’t end up doing something reckless or harmful to myself.) I’ve been fighting this inner battle for a while now, and it’s hard to keep it all in check.

I want to cry right now, but I can’t because my cousin is sitting next to me, and I don’t want to break down in front of them. I guess I just need some time to process everything, and I hope when I return, I’ll be in a better place.

Thank you for your understanding, and take care for now. Goodbye, but not forever.
(btw Did not try to reach me I am probably off by the time this is featured)









-Sincerely Anthony Martinez