It’s not so easy, finding peace,
Greasing games and bets to cease.
I could throw you in the lake,
Watch you sink, with no escape.
A kiss, a curse, both intertwined—
A deadly thought stuck in my mind.

Something’s rotted, left behind,
Curled and cold within the bind.
Or poison sweet, your birthday cake,
A final bite you’d never taste.
I’m no villain, not tonight,
Just a loner, lost in flight.

I could push you from a height,
Let you tumble into night.
I can't decide if you should stay
Or if you should slip away.

Heaven waits, or so they say,
But my heart, it won't obey.
Dead inside, cold as stone,
Hardened, left to stand alone.

I could bury you alive,
Lock you deep, where none survive.
But you'd return, knife in hand,
And end me where I stand.

Dancing jigs until I’m weak,
Slugging drinks I dare not keep.
The truth, it fooled me all along—
Now you're here, and something’s wrong.

I could drown you in the bath,
Let the water choose your path.
Or tie you tight, with rope to spare,
And leave you gasping for the air.

I can't decide if you should live,
Or what more this heart can give.
But no matter what I might choose,
I know that either way I’ll lose.

Lock the doors, close the blinds tight,
We’re going for a ride tonight.