maybe the reason why I've been so snappy at him is because I've been so scared of myself about doing the things I want to do. maybe the reason why I wanted someone I was close to to not interact with me is because I don't find the "jokes" funny. maybe the reason why I snapped at Wes is because I didn't want someone who I was even closer to backstabbing me. Maybe it's my fault I'm so scared. Maybe I can't be free and if I do I'll get into trouble. Maybe I am a normie.