Changing is hard.
There's always so many things i must discard.
And there's always another problem that gets in the way.
It gets to the point where i don't even know what to say.
Trying not to lie but lies come out anyway.
It's like i can't turn back, when i've chose this single path.
And soon it all fades into the blackness.
And when i try to see love i only see madness.
Sadness.
It's so tragic, but i just can't fix it like magic.
Even if i try hard.
There's always another mistake that i'll make.
And instead of fixing it i just take and take.
And i cry because i ruined it.
All of my chances i just blew them.
And, i'm affected by my past.
People tell me their opinions but i never asked.
So i wear this mask, hide the lies and act like i'm fine.
When even i don't know what's behind it.
Because of all the lies, and in time i forgot why.
And now i ruined everything it seems, everything is falling apart from it's seams.
It makes me want to scream.
But yet i still can't see.
And if i had one wish.
I would ask for it all to be fixed.
But i don't...
So lets take a moment to remeber when, everyone was friends.
Lets look back when there was no hate, and everybody could appericiate.
Where did it go?
I want to know.
But i don't.
And now here i stand right as i am.
And i say these words.
That i held in, but to what worth?
I'll only end up lying again.
Trying but being lost to no end.
This is insane, i'll never change.
Everything is so strange...