prepare for this long message..
aight. i wanna help, you know that. but you won't let me. you think i'm not gonna care. if you think that why do you think i'm saying that i won't sleep until you tell me what's wrong? geez boy. please tell me. i really do care ! don't think otherwise. you cared about me for the past what ? 8 months ? and it's still going. it's my turn. you can lean on me now. you can dump your emotions all over me. i might not be able to help. maybe just support you. but you still won't let me. i'm trying soo hard. are you trying to make me feel guilty or something ? you're probably worse than me when it comes to life. i wasn't all suicidal and soo worked up about life until that incident. and you know whut incident i'm talking about. sorry if i TRIED to get you to feel bad about me. at that time i was stuipid and i felt worthless. if felt like i was nothing in life. that no one cared for me and no one realized my pain. but you tell me this everyday and i don't believe you. "i've felt it all my life". when i scrolled down your page for like half an hour. even before we met i saw emo notes' and stuff. i guess thats true. but remember everyone is messed up.. everyone will fail.. and everyone will someday give up.. but people are there (like ME!) to help you. even though i can't help all much. i can try at least.. i wanna help cause you're getting worse. i don't wanna wake up knowing that you're gone. i wanna know that you're happy, living life as it is. that's it.. I love you buddy. i care and i wanna please let me. you already broke soo many times..one day you're gonna need that person to take care of you and watch out for you. i don't want you cutting yourself or about to jump off a bridge or something. i don't want you feeling like this anymore. I love you buddy.