When I finally realized
She isn't responding to
My phone calls and emails
I knew I had to make a phone call


Later that night
After putting my son to bed
I went out into the barn
And I closed my eyes and I bowed my head

I said "Lord please help me help my stupid self."
And then all of a sudden
Something overcame me

I felt empowered
I felt okay
I felt like me again

2 days later
She still does not respond
And I knew I had to make another phone call