I long for you to understand.
And I don't mean to sound creul.
And I don't care what you think.
But when you cry I smile.
When you feel pain I laugh.
When you hurt I rejoice.
Only because someone,
Somewhere.
Feels something too.
Yes, I know I'm insane.
But I want to cut your flawless skin.
I want to show you what it's like.
To live a moment in my life.
And if it comes down to it.
I'll staple your eyes shut so you can think.
But please.
Just please understand.

I am who I am.
My thoughts overwhelm even myself.
Suppressed by fears.
Emotions.
And worst of all.

Suppressed by myself...

Author's note
Okay guys, Don't say "You're a freak" Or anything. But yes these sadly are some of my everyday thoughts. I on't want you're pity I just want to express myself. And Obsessive Thinking. Or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder(OCD) [OCD can also be like being a perfectionist but HAVING to do it instead of WANTING to] Is VERY serious. (Btw I'm not diagnosed with this but the pain in the butt doctors think I am) To 3.6 million adult americans and 1.2 million children this occurs. Most oftenly to women. And this is caused by being abused when younger, Relationship problems, Parents divorceing, and even the simplest of things, When you're bullyed at school, and no one understands you. And this happens when you're mind only allows you to think of that one thing. Over and over and over again. And you can try all you want but it doesn't go away. Yes, This is an obsession and addiction. And too most people that have it, Are some of the most disturbed people out there. They're scarred for life. This is the part doctors worry about most; OCD leads up to other addictions such as alcohal, cutting, and smoking. These things because they help "relieve" thier minds. The people diagnosed with OCD would literally do ANYTHING to releve their minds! But this is why I wrote this poem for 4.8 million people out there with OCD.