Sometimes i wish i could just disapear.
I honestly wonder, "would i be truly missed?"
There's nothing i can do to change the way things are, no matter what i do, i end up huting the people i love, dearly.
I hope every morning that my life will change, that it will get better,
that i would wake up from this horrific nightmare,
to relize tht it was merely just a dream,
that my life would go back to the way it was,
so simple, so easy, so carefree, with out worry or exspectation.
i wush my life wasnt so complicated, full of irony, hatred, and regret.
Some times i feel so sufficated in the barriers of my own life,
that the choices i make not only affect my self, but someone else as well.
Every day i leave my home, i put on my brave face and blindly stumble through the hardships of the day.
I suffer endlessly day after day, and no one ever notices.
i scream for help, but no one listens. Why is that?
They all say they are there for me, that all i have to do is ask for help,
but when i do ask for tht help all i get is the ice cold sholder of ignorance.
I feel as if I am alone, tht i am the last soul suvivor if the planet.
i must fend for myself, tlk to my self, comfert myself, learn for my self, and trut on one but myself.
but then all of the sudden i see a light at the end of the tunnel.
Could it be the answer to my prayers? or is it just my eyes meanly deciving me?
Then, i realize tht it is just an aweful prank. who was i trying to kid? There is no light at the end of this long dragged out tunnel.
Endless pain, thts all i get, but i mustnt let it show.
I just hav to keep my hed up, and keep thinking positive thoughts.
i must keep telling my self, tht the depression and agony will soon some day come to a hault, untill then,
i sometimes wish i could just disapear.
i wish tht i could close my eyes and arrive to a place some were far away from here,