This is a poem I wrote.. I was having a lot of mixed emotions. I decided I would type it all to try and explain it. This isn't really for ratings... just thinking.

You enjoy my pain...
You spew my name in vain.
You enjoy the taste of my tears...
But yet you use to try and chase away all of my fears.

You enjoy seeing the blood I shed...
You enjoy it when I say that I wish I was dead.
You laugh at the truth that I tell you...
As of the secrets, I wish I would have told you very few.

You scream at me,
It only pains me more, don't you see?
When I say that I'm done...
I mean it, you've had your fun.

Stop the constant yelling...
My attempts of getting you back are failing.
Stop with the fakes and lies...
Lets just go back to the times of silent tears and sighs.

You know everything...
Just like the lyrics of hate that we now sing.
Why can't it just come to an end?
Why do we have to play the game of "self-defend".

I wish I could say I was done...
But I don't think that would be any fun...
I'm not ready to walk away just yet...
But still hold onto that regret that we ever met.

I am stuck between sanity...
And the side with my insanity.
Should I go and hurt her more?
Should I let go, like I should have done long before?

I guess time will tell it all...
Like glass...I will shatter after the long fall.
I guess I will keep my cool for now...
But sooner or later these cool walls will fall down.

So I'm telling you to get ready...
Don't take anything steady...
You're in a world full of hurt...
But I will kick you deeper and deeper into the dirt.

...There... ^^ I feel so much better now. 5/04/12