I'm losing control of myself. It makes me wonder when I say 'myself'. How can I even think on that word when i'm not sure what it means. The simple understanding that you are you and nothing else has become a nightmare for me. I've come to realise that i've been losing sight of "the big picture". Whatever that may be. I've begun to lose sight of reality. Turning into the monster I was, the monster I fear I still am. You had always held together my sanity, or what was left. I knew i'd drive you away with my over-bearing nature. But I love(d) you, and it is my understanding that in return you came to love(d) me.
What killed me was the fear of never hearing you say it again.
And you had promised you would stay. I was yours, you were mine, and all was at peace.
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