What happened with M? Please tell me, I can help you
I am so sad reaing this just touched me omg *suddenly, a huge tsunami of tears come crashing out of nowhere* U can message me about it if u want :'(

The struggles of teenagers this is like my thousandth time I've heard of stuff like this. I'm still an early teen myself and I've been through all of this bs and at the time I was in that bs I practically avoided everything and everyone but now I'm much happier with life and apparently helping my friends. Anyway everybody that has suicidial thoughts should not pull the plug not just for the people they left behind but for their own damn sake of you pull the plug you pull EVERYTHING even your emotions you'll probaly never be happy or depressed probaly the worst out of the two. And about your crush or boyfriend or whatever he is I'm just gonna say let him go if he's gonna ignore you and not respect you just give him up. And if you're sister is leaving all I have to say is cling to you're bestest friends for support. Well hope I helped in a way maybe.

I wish I could help you!
One of my friends was suicidal... They said stuff like "Why am I even here?"
His dad doesn't treat him correctly and once he called me and he was crying about it. I tried to comfort him but I even cried myself. I didn't accept his father treating him like that. I want to help people who are suicidal but I don't know how. I would say try to talk to them more and pray for them every day. Have you tried saying, "You matter to me, and if you died, imagine how your family and friends would feel. We would be lost without you. Your purpose is to love your friends and family and make memories. Laugh, don't fake a smile." I don't know if this will help... I hope it does.

And your family... Why would they want you to leave? Family is supposed to be forever, and if they're treating you like that, it's just wrong.

I couldn't imagine my sister leaving. Even though me and Zen fight sometimes, I still care about her. People bully her, and I stand up for her. If she was gone, I'd be bored out of my mind. It must hurt for your sister to leave for college. You guys must be like best friends.

I don't know what to say about M, and if he doesn't like you anymore... That's just crazy. Guys are stupid and confusing. They can be funny and sweet. Maybe I would know what to say if you told me what he was doing to make you think that he doesn't like you. I'll listen.

I also can relate to my friend crushing my self esteem. I can't just stop being friends with her. We have great times, but we're the exact opposite. I've changed and she can't seem to accept that. I cuss now. One day, as we were walking around in our neighborhood she says "You know, if you cussed a lot, I wouldn't be your friend anymore." Like, um, what the actual fück? And every day, I kid you not, she says something like, "I look so good today," "My lips look good," "My hair looks perfect,".
I can't tell her to stop cause she'll get offended. She is a very sensitive person. I don't even say anything when she say that. I roll my eyes when she's not looking. I FÃœCKING HATE when people act self centered. She never cared about what I have to say. And whenever she says she looks awesome, it just makes me feel more ugly... I hate it. We are opposites.

She's super girly.
I'm a tomboy.

I love first person shooter games, or any video games.
She, of course, hates them.

I love to learn.
She hates it.

I love reading science fiction,
She's a romance addict if she does read.

She couldn't ever be like me. Now I feel guilty from the changes I have made. I don't know what to do. But I won't just stop being friends with her. It's not that easy.
Now you know you're not the only one with these friend problems.

And I know how the long-term sub thing goes. In first semester, I had a long term sub, and to put it the easy way, she didn't give a fück. She never really taught us anything, and that just bugged me. That was in my favorite class, science. Now I have a real teacher, but she's not any better. I mean, she teaches us, bus she makes assignments due really early, and she expects us to get them done very quickly. Hahaa noooo.

I don't know if this helped. It most likely didn't, I felt I was just venting my problems too. I will pray for you, even though I don't know you that well, and I am willing to help.