I don't even know why the heck I'm writing this, and it sure as heck ain't gonna be submitted to be Featured, but in order to try to keep me from wanting to kill myself, I figured I'd try to write some Depressing Poem, to get all of this Sadness out of my System.
(I sure as heck Hope it works.)
Life is pointless.
Everything Lives meaningless Lives, Suffers, and then dies equally pointless Deaths.
(This isn't even freaking rhyming.)
We all try to convince ourselves there's a Light at the end of the tunnel, but right now, all I see is Darkness.
Every single path leads only to more Misery and Suffering.
You feel Good sometimes, but you don't think about that when you feel like I do now.
Instead, all you think about is how Miserable you feel, and how to end that Misery.
On an intellectual level, I know that Suicide isn't the answer, and it'll only lead to more Suffering, so I keep trying to tell myself this, but it's pretty damned hard for me to think like that right now.
Hopefully, I'll get over this, because Suicide is NEVER the answer, and even though I may wind up doing something stupid myself, I sure as Hell ain't going to let anyone else make the same mistake I keep thinking about making.
Life is NOT Pointless.
It's a Wonderful, Beautiful, Amazing thing, and it's completely irreplaceable.
If only typing all of this made me realize that on an Emotional level…
Y'know suicide is one of those things that it takes forever to realize how dumb it is...
..How dumb you'd be to do it.
I know my words won't help much, but hear me out.
This poem is actually quite meaningful, because it shows that you are not going to give up, or give in. Keep fighting, pushing, keep living. You will be fine.
I would tell you that I'm writing this because I don't want you to do this to yourself, but that's actually not true.
I'm writing this because I don't want you to do this to me; to us.
My goodness, I'm selfish!
Life without you is sad. Who will be there for me? Who will be the reason I keep coming back to Paint? I would have permanently left long ago if it wasn't for you. You are my friend and brother, and I never want to say goodbye to you. Ever.
So next time you think you mean nothing, and you are of no worth to anybody, think of my name.
And if you ever actually are about to, send me your adress so I can come to your house and give you a giant hug. (And then be arrested for tresspasing and breaking in)
Never, Ever, think life would be better without yours.
I love you as family. Please stay alive.
Draconid_Jo
22 Sep 2019 17:41
In reply to Siling-La
Thanks!
Although I'm feeling better now, I still think I needed to here that.
I won't be completely over this until me and Mimi are talking again like we used to, though.
Siling-La
22 Sep 2019 22:06
In reply to Draconid_Jo
I'm sure you two will be good in no time. It's hard to stay frustrated at you, after all.
Draconid_Jo
24 Sep 2019 17:04
In reply to Siling-La
Thanks!
Unfortunately, it seems a lot of people find me frustrating to deal with a lot of the time, though.
(Probably because of how weird I am, lol!)