Okay, this is less me complaining about a random broad-ish subject like the ads thing I did earlier and more me complaining about a very specific thing, because it made me uncomfortable and also I haven't written any blogs in months besides that ad rant and I also haven't watched any movies to "review". Also I'll probably fall back into that void because I have 3 new games to play, Doom Eternal comes out in a month and I just haven't felt like watching movies.

Anyway though, I'm pretty sure most of the people who've been friends with me on here since I first joined know that I used to roleplay and it was very cringey and bad and I regret every decision 13 yearold me ever made. I'm also pretty sure any of you who follow my art insta, which I think is actually only Mimi, knows I make a stupid amount of characters. I have yet to figure out why, my brain just keeps making me. But either way, I don't do anything with these fucking cretins I have created, I draw like 3 of them consistently the rest live in the void where they are forgotten. You'd think I'd like write a story or something with these fuckers, or just roleplay like I used to, but no. My writing is atrocious and none of my characters fit together at all and I haven't roleplayed with anyone in years because I am horribly introverted and hate talking to new people in private. I tried to roleplay like once recently with a friend and another mutual friend and it lasted for about 5 minutes before we all got super busy and just never continued.

So like, imagine my surprise when some rando asks me in DM on my art instagram if I roleplay. Normally I won't answer random DMs like that because "ha ha how do I communicate like a human?" But because I was bored, and I've made some characters I'd actually like to try to do something with I decided to answer them. Although all I said was that I used to and haven't in like years. So then they asked if I'd want to maybe start one so like an idiot I decided "Yea, sure why not? Maybe it'll be fun and I'll make like a friend. Or something."

But it was not fun children. Mostly because it didn't fucking go anywhere. A really important thing to know is, all of my characters are fucking weird, or they're assholes, or they're weird and they're also assholes. So I told the random person in my DMs that I'd pick a character based on a plot or based on their characters so that we don't end up in some situation where like they have a character that's from like idk Medieval times or something and I decide to use a character who just completely doesn't fit, y'know. I think that's a reasonable way to start. Tell the person who you want to do a roleplay with what kind of a plot/story you'd be interested in doing. 1.) so in case the other person isn't comfortable with that you can have a plan B or 2.) Or just so you don't waste eachothers time if you don't have a plan B and the other person is uncomfortable. Also because some people take roleplays as the word of fucking god for every character involved and if something happens either between characters or two a character it h a s to be cannon.

Anyway they tell my they like to come up with a plot after they know about the characters so I was like "Ok, well I have these 3 characters I'd like to do something with" and send them ref sheets and the bios for each of them. Let me just tell you right now, none of these characters at all fit with the apparent idea this person had for a roleplay. One of them was a weird lizard/deer looking person from another world and is stupid aggressive and values strength above everything else. The second one was basically a mercenary in fucking combat armor and like an emotionless robot who doesn't like people. And the third character was part of a cult in his past, got out of the cult, somehow summoned a demon and now it owns his soul and tortures him for its own amusement.

But somehow this person decided that "Ah yes, the character who gets fucking tortured by a demon? Perfect for a romance plot." Like, boi w h a t. At least I'm assuming that's what they intended because they asked if he was into guys or girls and my awkward response was that I'm uncomfortable with romance so all of my characters are Asexual so I can avoid that. Their only response was Oh. Like I wasn't rude about it, I don't think I was anyway. I just answered them honestly that romance makes me uncomfortable. Also the fact they wanted to make a whole ass character for this which was supposed to also be a demon.

Just ignoring that fact that I'd be uncomfortable with that type of plot, how the fuck is a romance supposed to work between the guy who's already been tortured by a demon and most definitely wants nothing to do with any more of them, and another literal demon. Also I'm a complete stranger, I do not know this person messaging me, they do not know me, why in the name of all that is holy would you decide that "Ah yes, this is the type of roleplay I would like to do with this stranger. A Romance." Like I don't understand that line of thought at all.

Especially cause like, you don't know if the person you're talking to is a weirdo. Even if I wasn't uncomfortable with the idea of romance I'd never roleplay a plot based on it, if it came up naturally in a normal plot thats another story, but like I don't see how you're even meant to do anything substantial with only that for a plot, or the basis of a plot. Also the fact that you could intend for it to be perfectly innocent normal like, haha its a Hallmark rom-com but in roleplay form, but then the person on the other end decides "hee hee ha ha how about I make it over sexual instead." And just no, How about we do not and I avoid the idea of love because ew. Affection is gross.

But I don't know. maybe I'm wrong, maybe that isn't what they intended but I don't know because their only response was Oh. Maybe I am just overreacting because of my physical revulsion to anything involving romance or love. Or maybe I'm just fucking stupid and they didn't mean that at all. I have no idea. But yea, this was a thing. This probably isn't even worth featuring/even submitting but ha ha bad decision time.