Even though I don't want to
It feels like i have to
Waste my life
Waste my time

I'm sacred of living
I don't want to waste my love
I always feel like I'm only giving
Laughing at prayers from up above

Burning out
I'm a wildfire
Spent all seasons on the sidline
I'm still trying to figure it out

I'm scared of wasting my mind
Scared of living
I don't want to waste my time
Never learned the art of forgiving

Always doubting myself
You don't need to tell me I'm done
Scared of living
As if I'm doing this for fun

Always trapped under pressure
wasting my life
trying to slow down
But I can't help it

always
so scared
i feel alone
you can hear it in my tone

dreaming
it has me weak
Scaring the insecrurities
back into me

trapped in my phone
is this the new stage?
stop giving me reasons to not trust everybody
give me time to arm myself

I don't want to move on
don't hit my line
its already too late
I've wasted my love
I've wasted my life
I've wasted my time
Only to be scared of living

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Some random thoughts jumbked together. doubt they can be considered poetry, but oh well.