I Wish, I Could Die. By flowerlight1

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By @flowerlight1
POSTED: 24 Dec 2023 10:45
CATEGORY: Poetry and Lyrics
FEATURED: Yes (@Draconid_Jo)
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I wish i could die, yet when i say it outloud it gets shot out like a fly 'No!' 'Why!?'

I try explaining why, nobody ever listens though.

I try being good, it never helps though.

I try smiling, but, they don't smile back.

I try dancing, I just get called a 'clumsy lot'.

I try hugging people, they dodge me though.

I cannot sleep anymore, I really want to die, I know im young, but, I really want to know. 'Why can't I die?'

Some will say 'Because God wouldn't like it!?' they don't understand, thats not what i meant.

Some will say 'Oh! You baffonish lot!' and, I will hide.

Some will cry 'Don't Die!' would you rather me fly?

You made me want to die, no not you reader! them. The people who kill innocence, the people who kill for hearing voices in there heads, the people who tell me that I am so ugly, the people who say I'm untrustworthy, the people who don't love me, or smile at me
, or hug me,

Those people hurt me beyond deaths pain

And yet, they don't even realize it. Even After There Dead

+9 -0

mewoneox3
14 Feb 2024 06:54

this is really good, and really relatable

ROSEBLOODSTONE
26 Dec 2023 22:57

...cries

Draconid_Jo
24 Dec 2023 13:06

This is obviously a pretty sad poem, but also well-written, and something that (unfortunately) I can relate to on a personal level.

(I've struggled with these sorts of feelings for most of my life.)

flowerlight1
24 Dec 2023 18:52
In reply to Draconid_Jo

awhhh pokemannn :‹ r u alr tho-?

Draconid_Jo
24 Dec 2023 19:09
In reply to flowerlight1

I am, and it's entirely because of all of the kind and wonderful friends that I've made here on Paint, including you.

(Y'all are like my support group, lol!)

flowerlight1
24 Dec 2023 19:10
In reply to Draconid_Jo

phew u worried me xd

Draconid_Jo
24 Dec 2023 19:14
In reply to flowerlight1

Don't worry, as I'm pretty much OK these days, although last year after my mom died I was certainly on the edge of not wanting to live anymore.
(And the thought of losing close friends can cause me to freak out a bit too.)

flowerlight1
24 Dec 2023 19:16
In reply to Draconid_Jo

awh....thats terrible... at least ur mas in heaven! :D

Draconid_Jo
24 Dec 2023 19:40
In reply to flowerlight1

Yup, that's true.

flowerlight1
24 Dec 2023 20:17
In reply to Draconid_Jo

1 day ur gonna be able tae give her the most BIGGEST huggie an shes gonna show u all of her friends shes made! :D

Draconid_Jo
24 Dec 2023 20:40
In reply to flowerlight1

Yup, that's true as well.

My mom (prior to dying) would talk about being up there in Heaven with her own parents and some of our pets (our pet dog and many of our pet rabbits) who have passed away, and playing and having fun with them someday.

(And she's actually able to do that now.)

Also, on a somewhat related note, earlier this year I wrote this lyrics blog, in honor of both her and also my friend Angela (who was the top Overlord here on Paint, right below @HullBreach ), who had passed away earlier this year.
(At least they're both in Heaven now.)

flowerlight1
24 Dec 2023 21:12
In reply to Draconid_Jo

oh yh i heard about that- i hope her familys alr.. also i hadda bunny tae! hes name was MR FLOPPY EARS! he lived for 4 yrs an when he died da wanted tae throw him over our gate for the foxes butt ma made him dig a hole an cement it so no animals could eat him

Draconid_Jo
24 Dec 2023 22:47
In reply to flowerlight1

Yeah, we've had a lot of bunnies (live and) die here, and it was actually my sister's very 1st bunny (who is father, grandfather, great grandfather, or great great grandfather of all of her other bunnies) that lived the longest so far: over 10 years.
(Unfortunately most of the others didn't get to live nearly that long so far.)

flowerlight1
25 Dec 2023 01:05
In reply to Draconid_Jo

10 YRS-!? WOAH- hehe xD hes the father of all bunnys xD-

Draconid_Jo
25 Dec 2023 01:18
In reply to flowerlight1

Yup lol, pretty much.

(And my sister REALLY loved him, too.)

BTW, what was Mr Floppy Ears like?

flowerlight1
25 Dec 2023 02:05
In reply to Draconid_Jo

he wassa gift from my mate who hadda momma bunny with bbys hes bby was named 'ms hops' an she lived till 2 butt they were brown an blackish an mr floppy ears,ears xD dragged on the ground an my da rlly liked him, they would sit on the couch an eat crisps together, an everyday after school id go outside an talk tae mr floppy ears, we also hadda angel fish for over 9 yrs anna black lab for 16 yrs

Draconid_Jo
25 Dec 2023 02:24
In reply to flowerlight1

Wow, he sounds like he was a pretty cool bunny!

(And I REALLY like fish too, BTW.)

flowerlight1
25 Dec 2023 02:34
In reply to Draconid_Jo

wats ur fav fish?

Draconid_Jo
25 Dec 2023 03:22
In reply to flowerlight1

Definitely Megalodons, which were GIANT sharks that lived millions of years ago and ate whales.
(Unless you mean to have as a pet, in which case my answer would be alligator gars instead.)

When I was little we had a couple of bettas that I had named Freddi and Luther, named after the main characters from one of my favorite video game series, pictured above.

(And although they weren't giant and prehistoric, they were pretty cool too!)

flowerlight1
25 Dec 2023 03:50
In reply to Draconid_Jo

awh thats adorable xD- my ma used tae hve a betta named bob she got him before college an was still there after she was married an i wassss 6-? prob xD

Draconid_Jo
01 Jan 2024 20:19
In reply to flowerlight1

Wow, that's pretty cool!

BTW, happy New Year!

flowerlight1
02 Jan 2024 04:52
In reply to Draconid_Jo

HAPPPPYYY NEWWW YRRR

I Wish, I Could Die.

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