I swear I'm going crazy! My dad has *trust issues* and rightfully so! I can't even ask for anything, I just go and do it anyway. And that's the core of all my problems. I need to change.

So one time I had a tablet. An android tablet. It wasn't a good one. It was extremely weak and it struggled to run simple games. But it was a privilege to have, since I was only 11 at the time, and my brothers each got [electronic devices] at the age of 14. I had that for a while, until I broke the screen somehow. The thing was built so cheaply that it wasn't worth fixing. Then my mom wanted to buy me a dsi, but I convinced her to buy a 3ds. It was the original model in blue, and it was in hella bad condition. Anyway, my mom got herself a dsi shortly after. My 3ds got bricked after a while, and to this day I don't know what happened. (But I managed to fix it in the end) I got a phone to play on after a while, and LITERALLY THAT SAME DAY I disobeyed my parents with it. Then I proceeded to make a string of bad decisions over a long period of time that my dad BROKE MY PHONE IN HALF. I had to survive off of YouTube on a blu-ray player (which ran poorly) and eventually I fixed my 3ds. I had that for a while until the screen cable got cut. ( a common problem among the original 3ds generation) And then I bought a new 3ds (that's what it's called) which is basically a newer and better version of the 3ds. That's what I lived off of until a few days ago. I still have it. Well during the span of one year, which is how long I've had it, I've made a few dumb decisions. (Disobeying my parents) but it's gotten better than [the fone era] though. Now I have an iPad 4 which is so old that only a select few apps on the App Store that haven't been updated in a while still work on it. And I made a really bad decision once more. I've improved greatly over the years, but I still need help with regaining my trust.