How would one start out a blog asking for help even though it’s more of a personal journey? As I write this, I ask myself what it means to come to this site every day and see people come and go. I've been a member for almost 3 years and as the years go by and I transform from the age of 14 to 17; I notice things more. The love I used to have for previous members is nothing but a faint glitter in my heart and in my memory. The things I used to like have changed severely.

All my friends have back from '09 have changed or been changed. They've quit, got perma-banned, or just made an ALT and came back on. How do I know if the person I'm talking to is the same one I did 3 years ago. The only way to defend myself is to provide proof is my Profile number. I am member number 12199 and that was back in December of '09. Now we have over 85,000 members!

But my cry for help is how people keep coming back to this site after 1, 2, 3, or even the really old members, 4+ years of coming here. I'm sure all your friends have moved on and you've made new ones. But looking at it in hindsight, I see that the nostalgic view I that I had in one month between '09 and '10 has been way better than the five months it's been in '12.

What makes you come back again and again, day in and day out? Is it your daily admin duties that bring you back for those occasional people that I know who became admins? Or is it to see that you've received 1, 2, or even more messages in your mailbox or to hope that you actually got mail? Is it to leave comments on friend’s profiles or to see some on yours? Or is it just as plain as you are bored and have nothing better to do? My flame, my love, for this site has withered and burnt out. Maybe it could be reignited, but as I ask this for the final time, what makes you keep coming back?