Smile to cover of the pain
Yell to cover the sadness
Cry to cover the anger

You think you see me trying
I know inside I'm dying
You look at me laugh
I see myself trapped
You'd swear I was happy by the way I act
And that's exactly what I'm putting up, an act
Because me feeling a certain way isn't allowed in your presence
So as to why I'd show you the truth, makes no sense
I fear letting you in, not because you'll judge me, but because you don't care
Not everybody is built not to care
Most times I hardly remember to feel
Rarely allow myself to live with what's real
I'm numb to the point where I have no release
The bottle's overflowing yet I let it be
Not because I want to, or maybe I do
Either way, it's nothing new
Day by day, contemplating what to do
They say it's about how you feel before you choose
What if it's not about what I choose?
Maybe I'm forced to look at life with a blank stare in my eyes
To not feel anything but neutrality as I experience life
Hell, I don't even know

Smile to cover of the pain
Yell to cover the sadness
Cry to cover the anger

Smile, smile, smile to cover the pain
No matter what
In front of anyone and anything
Grit my teeth and force a smile until it hurts

Yell, yell, yell to cover the sadness
When I'm all alone
Because sadness doesn't have a place in me to call home

Cry, cry, cry to cover the anger
In the dark depths of the night
When no one is in sight
And I have a chance to seep into the most painful parts of this thing I call my mind

I look into the mirror and fear what I see
This person who's made up of everything except me
Me and feelings, that is
I speak and listen to a horrid voice that I don't dare to call my own
No one seems to notice what has become of the person that stands before them
But I notice


Smile to cover of the pain
Yell to cover the sadness
Cry to cover the anger