My physics teacher has cerebral palsy, watches obscure Youtube videos in his spare time, and plays D&D. He is cool.I saw D&D and immidiatly thought, 'I want him as a teacher.'
I don't know anymore.tldr
I never wanted to be the kid who was ever held back or who dropped out completely. I wanted to prove myself smarter than at least my idiotic father, which I barely did.
For a while in school, I had some kind of social anxiety. I was a pretty badass little kid until I reached about ... Well, I'm really not sure.
At whatever time, I was incredibly paranoid. It got worse and worse, and I didn't know that I was like that to get help. My mom never payed/pays much attention to me so she didn't notice either. I was and still am not allowed to go anywhere without my mom or someone very close to her, so I never had a close friend to be there for me or anything. I seriously think that if I did have real friends I would've gotten over the problem smoothly and it never would have reached the point that it did. I probably would still be in school and I'd maybe be in a completely different situation than I am now. But alas... I instead spent all my time online talking to some disgusting, stupid boy and sleeping all day in the classes. This made even worse, when I actually tried to do something productive the teachers wouldn't help. Not that they were uch help anyway, but they even stopped trying to explain.
So... I've, as far as I can tell, gotten over the issue that caused me to stay away from everyone. But now I'm so far behind I don't want to go back. I'm kind of lost and confused. I don't think school is worth my time, or the time of the teachers who'll try to help me since I might fall back again. No... actually I'm sort of just typing excuses at this point. I could go back.
But I keep changing my mind about this. One day I'm fine and feeling like I want to do it, so I can be succesful, then the next I'm all depressed and stuff... Or, once again, don't care.
I actually feel a bit better about this, having it written down. Out in the open... where people can read it. o-o
TL;DR, skul is dumn n 4 lzrs