Some people of this site know that I battle Clinical Depression & that I'm known to be extremely sensitive, what many people don't know is how severe my Depression can actually get at times.
I have a confession I'd like to openly make on this site in this blog. A confession that few people in the SDK community actually know about. I am a cutter, & have ben since the age of 17. While my episodes (as I call them) are extremely rare now, because I've found an outlet for my cutting urges. I do have occasions, during severe emotional stress, where I fall. I'm proud to say as of right now, it's been almost 4 months since I last fell & cut myself. I'm also proud to say that in the past 18 months, I've only fallen twice.
I'm making this confession because I want the teenagers on this site to know that I am someone that has experienced everything they are going through now. I am no better then you because I am 5, 10, 15, years older. I am an adult yes, but I still struggle with the same emotional feelings in day to day life that you do. To show you how bad I got at that time in my life, I collected poetry I wrote back in 2002 & 2003 when I was 16 & 17. I'll post them all under the INSPIRATIONAL category, as I want these poems to inspire you to seek the help you need to get better & to show you that you are not the only person that struggles in this world.