Hello, everyone. How's it going? I noticed no one ever answers that when I ask it in a blog. You know I wouldn't ask if I didn't want to know.

I mean that sincerely.

I Sincerely Believe this to be the Honest Truth

One of the biggest problems in my personal relationships is that people think I'm very insincere. They think I don't mean what I say and that I never say what I'm really thinking, and for the most part that's true. But I don't think that makes me insincere; I may not be telling the truth, but what I do say is with the sincerest hopes of achieving my sincerest goals.

I don't say things because I really truely believe them. I say what I think will help, what I want heard, and what needs to be said. For example, if someone isn't around and I tell everyone it's because they contracted canine parvo, that doesn't mean I really think they have parvo. But I sincerely want people to hear someone say that, and I sincerely believe I need to say it myself in order to help achieve that goal. Do you understand?

I almost never say what I'm really thinking because a lot of the time it won't help a situation for people to hear what exactly is on my mind. Very often I have certain thoughts on the situation at hand which are better off just staying thoughts, amusing though I may find them. And very often I have more than just the situation at hand in mind, and talking about whatever else I'm thinking of is not a good idea.

Here's an example of both of those things; I have a friend named Joseph who plays football. He once asked me if he had his uniform on all right, and I said yes. But I had a thought in that moment, and it was something like "Oh my goodness, he doesn't remember about the hole in the back of those pants. I can't wait to see how this turns out." You see, I was sincere in saying that he had it on all right, since everything was indeed on properly, but I found it very amusing to think of what might happen once people saw the hole, and that thought was better off staying a thought since it would not have helped me see the end result had I told Joseph exactly what occurred to me.

As for the thoughts on things other than the situation at hand, at the moment I saw Joseph I thought "God damn, his thighs look so fat. Wouldn't it be great to change Joseph's email password and security question to 'What's your favorite part of Joseph's mom?' and have the answer be 'Her thighs'?"

I don't think Joseph would have appreciated hearing that in that moment. It wasn't a necessary thing to say, and it wouldn't have helped anyone, save for Joseph.

So you see, oftentimes you have to think about what you say before you say it in order to do the most good. What you end up saying may not be the truth and it may not be even be everything you're thinking, but if you have sincere motives for saying those things then that doesn't make you an insincere person, nor does it make you a bad person. There are simply times when certain things need to be said regardless of what you really think, and there are times when other things are better off unsaid. This may require you to be dishonest at times, but a truely good person doesn't do the honest thing; they do what's right, even at the cost of their own integrity. That's called sacrifice, and it's what heroes do.

Be a hero. Be like me.