Greetings, Paint people. Tora here with another blog.
It's been about a year and one month since I joined this community, and I have to say... one year really made a difference for me. When I first joined, there were more people here, more liveliness. There were a few people in a chatroom almost every night. I had made a few friends and socialized quite a bit. In fact, this community has gotten me to come out of my shell and open up a bit. The people here have gotten me out of some rough patches in my life, and for that, I am truly grateful.
Over the course of a year, I've seen members come and go. I've seen the new members, some of them who are still active to this day. I've seen some leave, and some who only pop in every once in a while. And I've seen old accounts rising from the dead, which to me is always exciting to see. It sometimes gives me the little hope that Paint will become more active again; perhaps not how veterans say it was ten years ago, but getting there.
I myself have no plans to leave the community. Sure, I have a few bans under my belt, but I still haven't felt any different about this place. It's almost become a second home to me. Some of the people, I've grown close to and consider my friends.
Every so often, I hear someone say that Paint won't last much longer. And it honestly makes me sad to hear that. If it were up to me, I would let Paint live forever. But alas, it isn't my choice. This place really just eats up money, despite the Patreon and Paypal for it. It really won't last more than a year or two or three, unless more folks join.
For a few months now, I've tried my best to get more people to join. I've tried social media and random chat sites. I've tried reaching out to friends, and they did join at some point, but their accounts fell inactive. Even my wonderful cousin left Paint. I still refuse to give up with that.
But let's face the reality: the site's outdated. The excitement of it before faded. From what I've heard of the site before, it's much better now than then. There are much more features and cool stuff. It makes me wonder why people left in the first place.
Paint's got bugs in some places and over 200 Help Desks that still have yet to be fixed, but almost every day, there are new ones. I myself have put in a good number of Help Desks, but mostly with new features and upgrades for the site (some off which, Hull has so kindly implemented). But as far as I know, it still doesn't seem as "modern" to this day and age.
Aside from the talk of the site itself, there are the people. People I know who can't talk in any other way besides this site. People I call friends whom I can't talk to anywhere else but here. And while I've had my share of stupid arguments and differences, I still can't help but admire the individuality of everyone here. It's amazing how I have found myself to understand and relate to others on this site; the things I find I have in common with others.
In addition to that... I've gone through so many ups and downs in my life this past year, and I always turned to Paint for moral support. Sometimes I'll express my upset, sometimes I won't; but more often than not, many people here have indirectly comforted me and made me feel better. Paint is partially the reason why I no longer self harm, why I learned to let go, and also partially the reason I learned to harden myself and be a tougher person. The people here have taught me to be more patient and kind and forgiving. So to the people of Paint, I thank you.
If I could wave a magic wand and magically make Paint lively again, I would do it without a moment's hesitation. I would love to be able to go into a chatroom again with people, even if it isn't a lot. I would love to just see more active people.
So with that said, I'm content with continuing what I'm doing now. I'm okay with trying to get more people to join. I'm okay with brainstorming new ideas for Paint. I'm okay with who is and isn't here, with creating new stylings, with socializing in mostly inactive groups.
To all of the members of Paint, and HullBreach himself: thank you.